Four phases with ayahuasca
My journey through rapture, breaking, healing and surviving.
Wandering
Stories of the travels, initiations, magick, and not knowing what I was doing, in order.
Healing isn’t repair
Gnarly recoveries, bending time, and surrendering to chaos. Three levels of healing that help us change the rules.
Soul Wandering in Hades
We all have our own curriculum. You don't need a van. You don't need to visit where anyone else has been. And you don't need to drink ayahuasca.
Mexico: an unexpected initiation
Five weeks through Mexico's sacred sites — the initiations, the hitchhiking, and the places that did nothing at all.
India Initiations Part 3
My PM brain had absolutely nothing it could latch on to. A cave, a monastery, and a year in Asia coming to an end.
Spiritual medicine, Kathmandu Valley
Despair, hope, nagas, and a gigantic Shiva party
India Initiations Part 2
From north to south: ayurveda, an ashram crisis, a tiny temple on a building site, and a goddess who said 'this is all my temple’.
India Initiations Part 1
“No one's coming to save you." Two months in Varanasi — the guru disasters, the cremation grounds, and the one Sadhu whose face still shows up.
What to look for in a reader
You don't owe them the rest of the hour. What to look for, what to ask, and how to spot the difference between a reader and a performance.
What makes a reading clean
A clean reader will say 'I'm not in a good space today, let's do this another time.' What to look for, what to trust, and when to head for the exit.
Is a tarot reading fortune telling?
No. Or at least, it doesn't have to be. What a reading actually gives you.
For the part of you that doesn't want to hear it
What to do when a reading lands harder than you expected.
Life as medicine
What breaks you open makes the space. What 'life as medicine' actually means in practice and in a reading.
The system wants to heal
'To feel it is to heal it'. Easy to say, harder to do. How to actually practice this.
You don’t have to believe in it
Is it imaginary? Partly no, and partly yes, and both are a good thing. You don't need to believe in it. You just need to stop managing it.
The Healing Crisis
It could be a gum. It could be an old niggle you'd forgotten about. What a healing crisis actually looks like, and why it's not something going wrong.
Training in Thailand
No temples. No sacred sites. Just the local beach restaurants and the 7/11. A short trip, some very strange things, and a sign that sent me off again.
Washed up in Bali
Three months in Bali — the temples, the nutcases, and plunging to uncomfortable depths.
From PM to Shamanic Practitioner, order and chaos
A flimsy bribe that no one bought. They'd eat the pizza though. What I had to unlearn to hold space for someone else's chaos.