Notes
You're already in the field. The gate is open.
You're already a magician. The science is just catching up. What "magical thinking" actually is, and why it’s worth paying attention.
Stories of the travels, initiations, magick, and not knowing what I was doing, in order.
The information is there. I just don't share it. What I actually say no to, and why.
An hour in a reading with me: I don't perform. I don't do a voice. I just tell you what's there.
One is a medicine taken in a ceremony. The other is a delivery system for a specific dose of a specific alkaloid, optimised for the market.
You don't owe them the rest of the hour. What to look for, what to ask, and how to spot the difference between a reader and a performance.
Five weeks through Mexico's sacred sites — the initiations, the hitchhiking, and the places that did nothing at all.
"This is what I made, I don't care if it's a symptom or not." A different take on trauma healing.
A clean reader will say 'I'm not in a good space today, let's do this another time.' What to look for, what to trust, and when to head for the exit.
What breaks you open makes the space. What 'life as medicine' actually means in practice and in a reading.
What to do when a reading lands harder than you expected.
My PM brain had absolutely nothing it could latch on to. A cave, a monastery, and a year in Asia coming to an end.
Despair, hope, nagas, and a gigantic Shiva party
From north to south: ayurveda, an ashram crisis, a tiny temple on a building site, and a goddess who said 'this is all my temple’.
“No one's coming to save you." Two months in Varanasi — the guru disasters, the cremation grounds, and the one Sadhu whose face still shows up.
It could be a rash. It could be an old niggle you'd forgotten about. What a healing crisis actually looks like, and why it's not something going wrong.
The guidance isn't a verdict. It's a direction. What 'indicative' actually looks like.
Not "tomorrow, twin flame, full Disney ending." What's actually going on when your person hasn't come yet, and why the timing might be the point.
The photocopy room, the postman, and the load-bearing wall. Why 'you already know' is the work.
It's a tender, loving nudge. Not an answer, not a plan. Permission to do things differently.
"The not knowing is the killer." Sticky relationship dynamics in readings.
Gnarly recoveries, bending time, and surrendering to chaos. Three levels of healing that help us change the rules.
'To feel it is to heal it'. Easy to say, harder to do. How to actually practice this.
Specific vs. vague readings, and how to tell which one you're getting.
Is it imaginary? Partly no, and partly yes, and both are a good thing. You don't need to believe in it. You just need to stop managing it.
No. Or at least, it doesn't have to be. What a reading actually gives you.
No temples. No sacred sites. Just the local beach restaurants and the 7/11. A short trip, some very strange things, and a sign that sent me off again.
We all have our own curriculum. You don't need a van. You don't need to visit where anyone else has been. And you don't need to drink ayahuasca.
Three months in Bali — the temples, the nutcases, and plunging to uncomfortable depths.
Esoterica
Before I'd finished my mint infusion, I was squatting over a bucket, flooded with tears. I could sense my female ancestors all around me."
I just feel kind of awkward. Like I should be doing more. Saying some special words. Putting a crystal in the ground. Something.
My arms were flying up every thirty seconds. I looked like a crazy person. Four years on, it's very ordinary.
When you wake up and the dream has already done its work, the question isn't always 'what does this mean?'.
Strapped to a bed, her consciousness fragmented across the galaxy. What 'healing' can actually look like.